this feeling has come back like a bad dream. the anxiety, the manic depression, the disassociative feeling that never leave. i thought having a job and something to do would put these feelings at bay or to rest, but nothing of the sort for me. i want to just peel off my skin, shake it, then put it back on. sleep is hard to come by. i over analyze everything in my head and it keeps my brain running in circles. i take my drugs and just go from there. so, why did i get this dysfunctional gene?